Lost and confused about stone abilities & can't find specific info I need
by James Mckee
(Matoon IL USA)
Heads up, I'm a little tired so please pardon any grammar errors.
Well... like the title says I'm a little lost and confused, but not on the topic of what each stone does to a persons body, but more specifically about my body and my American Indian heritage.
Well this might take a while so go and get a snack and I'll tell you my story about it.
To start off with I have been connected to stones ever since I can remember by that I mean I can tell if one was a fake or real just by being in range of the stone. The range is about a foot max and about 3 inches minimum. How I can tell if they are fake or real is not by looking at but by how much pain or that tingly feeling when you touch those electric static orgs.
When I was younger I didn't notice it at all because I was more connected with my heritage of being a native american. My fave stone to touch when I was a kid were sapphires because its my birth stone. My childhood friend had a big collection of stones that he got from his family, and when I was younger I was always sensitive to spirits that gift ranged from seeing them to feeling their pain.
As I got older I stopped being me and tried to fit in, due to low self esteem and I slowly lost my connection over the years. Now I can only feel presences.
Now to more modern times, I went to cil-con last year its a local con ranging from paranormal to anime and gaming. The place that was hosting the event had several stalls of crystals at all of the entrances. At first I didn't notice anything but as I stood over each booth to look at the selection my head started to hurt along with back and legs so I went to a booth that I agreed to help run for a while expecting to get better.
Sadly that never happened, the more I stayed there the bigger my headache became all of the other symptoms disappeared shortly after I left. A few days after the event I walked in to the same location to look at stuff from radio shack and deals from payless shoes and the residual energy gave me one bad headache.
So I asked my step father who is sensitive to things like this, and his reply was he didn't know. The thing that came to his mind was since I'm half native american and half white and on my mother's side she has shaman and medicine man on her grandmothers side that maybe I inherited some of the recessive abilities from them.
I know some are going to ask this "why don't you go ask you father"? Well as soon as he found out he ran off.
So I can't ask him and even if I did he would not talk
about that stuff because he is ashamed of his heritage. I tried to find info on what chakra stones does to native Americans.
So far my info has been blank because the search engine give info on anything but. So I'm trying to do the next big thing and that is make a kit and experiment and also take note.
If there is a person reading this who is similar to me I would love some input. The first stone on my list just out of sheer coolness is red tigers eye. One person who I met at the con who saw me looking a little light headed and asked if i was ok, I said yes and no and they wanted more info, so I told them what happened.
She thinks that I might complete imbalance because she asked me if I had to rate the pain of being around the crystal booths for a 1 to 5 min length (Thats how much time it took me waiting in line just to look at them and read the little info card because I never had time to read about gems and crystals because growing up I spent most of my life moving from town to town due to my mothers job)
I said it was like a 10 mixed with someone trying to split me open with jack hammer and that is just my head along the other parts of my body felt like I was swimming laps in a pool.
She asked if this has ever happened and I said no not to this extent because most when I was younger touching real stone gave me an energy boost similar to 5 hour or a can of monster.
Then she asked me if I had a huge jump in stress or life changes and I joked around and said the usual puberty and high school problem and I went from loving myself to hating myself in order to fit in and went back to loving myself.
She thinks somewhere between the loss of identity and found identity that might have messed up everything.
So if anyone has any thoughts on what stones I should get for my kit I would love to hear. I know some are going to ask if I know how to meditate and yes I do. Back in my stupid kid years I had anger problems and meditation was taught to me from my step-dad to help me control my anger. Side note even meditation causes me to have a bad headache and according to my step dad and the person at the con that is not normal so any info would be great.
Outside of the stuff above I plan to buy loads of stones because they are so pretty and I think that they would make great gifts.
If anyone wants more info please leave a first name and a question related to this post. Thanks for reading and have a good day or night.... James