My Moldavite Family
I would like to start off by saying, Moldavite is an amazing specimen to work with. It's gotten me through so much and finally turned me into the person I've always wanted, or knew, I could be. But it didn't at first.
I've been diagnosed major-depressive for more than half my life. Basically I had no will to live, so I didn't care about anything, especially myself. I got lost in my emotions, lost in my head, than I got very lost in my life.
I fell behind in college, I couldn't socialize, I barely even left my small student-house room.
I felt like I was a giant black whole. I didn't want to hang out with anyone because all that would come out of my mouth were negative things - but there was a star, swallowed by this black hole, and that star was struggling to find its way back to me.
Crystal healing became my go-to, since prescription drugs never did anything but make me a zombie. It first started with Quartz, it gave me great energy. Learning to care for it, charge it, meditate with it, and eventually shoot white light from it - this gave me hope that there WAS something magical to life, something I had forgotten all along.
Next was Fluorite, love it. Its help me with a lot of creative writing, which is important in my educational program. Then there was Aqua Aura, Lemurian Golden Healer, Smokey Quartz, Selenite, and lots more. These were all helping me, but I still felt stuck.
That was until Moldavite was introduced to my life. My first meditative experience was with a small piece. I stood under a full moon and held it up. I felt and saw green energy flow from the piece, into me, then shoot into the heavens like a beacon. It was intense, but I got intimidated of what may happen next, so I broke the flow of energy and went to bed.
I began to wear the piece every day. And each day was becoming more and more intense. I started to get very angry, snappy with people. Felt like I had no control over what I was doing or saying. When I realized this, I took it off. I felt a shift immediately "back down to earth" and set it aside.
I remembered that its suggested to be used with a grounding stone, but I picked the wrong one, Black Obsidian. The day I decided to wear these two together, I became very hot. I shook hands with someone and they said "WO, you're so warm!" - this is strange since my hands are ALWAYS cold and clammy. As the day fell to night, I began feeling dizzy. My emotions soared from angry, to depressed, to nearly suicidal.
Here's a blurb from what I wrote that evening: "Time felt like it was speeding up, I became anxious, irritated and impatient, had bitter fits of rage bubble up out of nowhere, I couldn’t concentrate, lost my apatite, and my energy was zapped. It felt like a ticking time bomb in my stomach that could explode at any moment. Strange things started happening as well.
It’s as if I became magnetized to temptation, like I was being put to a test in every situation. My perspective on life became unbalanced, swerving to pessimistic ideals and human interaction became pointless, confusing.
The weirdest part was, I was in complete denial that is could be caused by this tiny piece of space rock. This doubt seemed to lock up my conscious warning signs somewhere in the back of my mind.
Like I was on autopilot and my radar was unplugged, leading me to smash blindly into every possible obstacle. After a week of building tension and disturbed sleep, I was thrown into a state of confusion, depression, and twisted delusions. I began to cry hysterically, I felt like my head was going to explode, and I was so hot I thought I would literally burst into flames.
My tears came out hot and they felt like acids running down my face. I struggled to call my partner on the phone but it wouldn’t turn on. I concluded that I was cursed and tore apart my room looking for the culprit. Was it my new crystal ball? Maybe it was because I moved my protection grid in my room? Was I just getting sick?"
I discovered that Moldavite and Black Obsidian was the problem. The two of them together, at once, was not okay, for me at least. I see it as Moldavite was purging all my negativity, and the Black Obsidian was absorbing all of it, causing me to heat up and panic with these two forces working with me energies. It was too much.
I got through it though. After I got through all the tests the Moldavite was making clear to me, after I purged all that built up anger, sadness, and regret. Then BOOM, I'm suddenly the happiest person on Earth!
Moldavite had let me "go with the flow", "live in the now" - and its been great!
I've now got a growing collection, I'll post a photo of my Moldavite Friends here. I've found that it works extremely well with Rose Quartz, or Selenite. And now that I've gotten past many fears, its been helping me amazingly with the third eye and heart chakras.
And now, I can't not wear it! If I go a day without it, I get a migraine! One that vanishes as soon as I put it back on. So, I guess I've found "my stone". And I love it.